I am a lot of things. I am a balloon floating high in the sky.

If I popped, the air would be filled with glitter, feathers, seashells and raindrops.







Sunday, May 05, 2013

Technology Test

This is my first attempt at writing on & posting from my phone.  If this works well, I can update more often as I rarely use the computer anymore for anything.  Not enough time I guess?

Yesterday my Mum forced me to go clothes shopping.  I have been wearing the same pair of hot pink yoga pants every single day for months now.  Nothing else fits and the maternity clothes I have tried on have been both horribly ugly and uncomfortable.  Not to mention, that everything seems outrageously expensive.

I actually had some luck.  I found a nice pair of 'normal' cargo style pants with a soft foldover waist.  I just bought a large, instead of medium and I think they are going to work fine.

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They are by XCVI, in a khaki colour.  I can't handle white.  My Mum bought them for me at the Navy Exchange which is such a nice resource.   It's the largest in the world!  The pants were probably 30% off their regular price.  They always have a great selection & amazing prices.

While there I had my first experience with pregnancy related sympathy from a stranger.  I was clumsily maneuvering my shopping cart around, and an older lady looked at me & my belly and said 'bless your heart'.

After the Exchange my Mum took me out for an early dinner at The Baker's Crust.  Another thing to be grateful for.  There are lots of great things in this part of the world, but my family and travels have spoiled me.  Hence, what I consider to be good food isn't always one of them.  But the Baker's Crust meets the mark.  It's pretty much the only place in the area to get decent bread.  They have a wood-fired oven which is pretty cool.  I tried the spinach & artichoke dip, yum.  And ordered the classic burger.  I've never really been a burger fan, but now that I'm pregnant & am past the pukey stage I want to eat one 'at least' once a week. 

photo by fishberryjam
 
photo by fishberryjam

photo by fishberryjam

For my pregnancy diet I'm letting my body and urges lead the way.  Meat, (but not chicken for some reason, yuck) potatoes, salad, icecream & some types of fruit are top of the list.  My favourite thing is Cranapple Juice.  I LOVE CRANAPPLE JUICE.  I can't get enough of it.  In fact, my husband is at the store right now buying me more.  He can't believe I've already polished off the huge three liter bottle we just bought.

After eating like a beast we went to The Macarthur Center.  It's nothing compared to a big city, but is probably the best around here.  They have shops like Michael Kors and Coach.  I also discovered that Lush moved in a few months ago!  Amazing!  I didn't buy anything but I did have to go in and smell everything.  Everything smells so good you just want to eat it.  And that's exactly what happened.  A family was there with their little girl; she was probably around two years old, maybe younger, and she took a big bite of a bath-bomb!  And then started sobbing when she realized it tasted horrible.  Poor baby.  It was very cute & pretty funny.

So anyway, I did find a couple of more things at Nordstrom's.  This amazing cardigan by Bobeau that I am so super in love with, and a plain pair of black yoga pants that are sooo soft and actually look like real pants and not sloppy sweatpants.  Both were on sale, thank goodness, and I guess now I can stop looking like a bag lady, my Mum's favourite phrase.

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I had more of what I assume to be pregnancy sympathy at Nordstrom's.  The yoga pants were at least four inches too long so we asked the alterations department if they could shorten the pants, and for how much.  The lady told me $14 but I told her I was worried, that since I was pregnant and my belly would change I might have to get them redone again.  She told me future alterations would be free which I thought was a good deal.  BUT when we got ready to pay, the cashier told me the alterations lady decided there would be NO charge for the alterations at all.  Not $14 .... $0 !  And when they are done they will ship them to me, also for free.  Money is so tight right now;  I'm so appreciative.  How nice is that?

I guess my only other observation about the day is that there were babies EVERYWHERE.  And I found myself eyeing things like carriers, strollers and even parenting styles with an interest I've never had before.

I came home last night to the cutest husband, who had done all the laundry, because he is the best.  I brought him home some huge cookies (from the Baker's Crust) and we curled up and watched The Guilt Trip (I recommend.  It didn't get great reviews but we really enjoyed it) and went to bed.

Today has been spent resting and recovering from my marathon day with my Mum and just generally BEing (still and in the moment) and incredibly happy, grateful and in love.

As I've been writing this our little one has been kicking around in my belly, as he likes to do, and I can hardly wait til I get to see him move his little limbs around and kiss his precious self.

(Side note: I guess this phone update thing is ok, except all the photos are dumped at the bottom willy-nilly, and no spellcheck, mea culpa.  I'll edit it and make it perty at some point.  Cont'd:  Ok, all prettied now!)

Friday, May 03, 2013

tempus volat

The last time I updated my blog was April 8th, 2012.

On that day, Easter Sunday, my Dad was hospitalized. He spent the next three weeks in the critical care unit, until we moved him to a more comfortable wing of the hospital on Friday the 20th. We also started making arrangements that day to bring him home and for hospice to come to the house.

He died early in the morning on Saturday, April 21st.

In that time so much has happened.

His death has been difficult. And yet, life has moved on in wonderful ways.

My Love flew from Italy to the U.S., just in time to be with me at my Dad's memorial service.

He stayed, and we were married on November 3rd, exactly six months ago today.


I started a new blog at some point, Love and Crickets, that I intended to be a space for me to work on moving forward with my new life.

I haven't used the blog that much, but I have been busy creating that new life.

VERY busy.

Today, I am 20 weeks pregnant.

I can not express the happiness, and wonderment and even bittersweet feelings this brings out in me, on a daily basis.

This baby spends his days and nights, kicking and squirming and making his presence known. I have a feeling he is going to be the spitting image of his father. He is already big and beautiful and perfect and full of life.

This past year has not been easy but it has been wonderful beyond expression.

Sunday, January 22, 2012